Babyloss Awareness: Angel May

This is my little girl May. The trauma of discovering her heart had stopped beating after a routine midwife appointment broke my heart in a way I never knew was even possible. I swear I felt it fracture into a million irreparable pieces. I remember that week more vividly than any other in my life. I could say so much. I am not over it. I have not accepted it. I have not moved through the ‘stages of grief’. I miss my daughter.
I carried a dead baby inside my body and I didn’t know. I gave birth to a dead baby after drugs convinced my body to let her go.
I feel guilt.

Remembering Angel May born at 19 weeks
30th May 2013

About Janine 623 Articles
I am an antenatal teacher, doula, baby massage instructor, postnatal educator, life coach, writer, mum, wife, friend and, sometimes, just me. As an experienced and qualified practitioner, I specialise in pregnancy, birth and early parenting - my aim is to listen, inform, support and reassure when needed. I have worked with parents since 2002 and I set up Birth, Baby & Family in 2011 to provide good information, a different perspective and links to the best products and services for families. I set up the Birth, Baby & Family Centre in 2014 to provide a welcoming, friendly and supportive space for parents across Tyneside.

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